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So my bf FINALLY decided to work with me and cut out the chips. We are both addicts. So we will see how long it goes.

I am CUTTING DOWN on breads - down to 5 a day inc all starchy stuff, potatoes, rice etc. No more margarine for me too.

I also finally got P90X and Im trying it starting Monday. I am excited and nervous. I also bought a cross trainer for the in between cardio.

I hope I can do this and shed the 50 lbs. Last night I went shopping and nothing fit me and it made me so depressed. I used to love shopping. So it woke me up.

Wish me luck!

Anyone ever try it? I have a friend doing it right now and he is shedding the weight and feeling good, quite quickly. In his case, this is the first time he has ever taken any health advice, so his body is reacting fast.

As a long term health yoyo weight person, I am definitely at a plateau…for about 3 years. lol..only the plateau goes UP not down!

Anyway, I gained 3 lbs this week but Ive been extremely bloated all week for some reason. Ive exercised quite a bit but still…ate chips…had some bingey nights…but Im not going to give up.

Im going to try this program see what happens. It sounds like a lot of fun.

Still vegetarian and not even missing meat. But Ive decided (and FINALLY the bf also will be in on it with me) I am cutting chips out for good. We will make pita chips or eat rice crackers if we have the craving. See how long this test lasts. The most Ive gone without chips is 2 months. I need to beat the craving. (its like an actual drug Im trying to quit)

So wish me luck! If any of you had tried the P9OX let me know how it went!

Cheers

As per the subject…..in a pretty bad place weight wise, but in a good place, mentally. I am back to being vegetarian, am loving my life, (my business is doing so well), my relationships with everyone are going great, and my day job sucks, but I love the people I work with and are such an inspiration.

However, I just cant stop eating. LOL. I am in the same place I was 12 years ago, when I was obese. I am picking up all my old habits (aside from eating crap, I still eat very well, except I am a chipaholic). I have not been active at all, and the older we get the more the pounds stay on so I think it has to do with that.

Reading my past posts I really am struggling, and that is MOSTLY with how I feel about myself. I am never happy.

When I joined this site, I dropped down to 171 and was STILL unhappy. I was at the PERFECT weight for me.

Now I am 229, and extremely unhappy, BUT I feel okay. I get checked regularly, my blood pressure is good, my blood work is good. I am very healthy on the inside, Im just carrying too much weight.

SO, I am back in the hopes of getting inspiration once again from all of you. I keep telling myself its a new day, do not give up. I have not given up for 12 years, and hey, I still lost  80 lbs and kept it off over the years. I just gotta get rid of the 50 I gained back. Sigh.

SO I am now vegetarian, I walk to the train and back (35 min walk) everyday, and I bought a cross trainer that I will work out on everyday for 20 min.

My biggest problem: emotional eating at night. I am a monster. I just pick on everything till I feel gross. SO if I stop that the pounds will drop. I know this.

Please, I need your support, and any stories you want to tell me that you think I can relate to, be my guest.

Good luck to all of you on being happy with yourself, no matter what size, but most importantly, being HEALTHY.

Thanks for reading.

So I joined in Jan and lost 10 lbs so far…I really love the points plus program! I was on the website and going to the meetings but I actually cancelled my membership now, as I feel I can do it on my own. I got the PP calculator, and all the books!

I am losing very very slowly, but its okay. I am not depressed or in a rush!

I hope everyone is well!

I decided to join stupid weight watchers. I was anti weight watchers for the longest time because I felt the point system was full of crap and they were just in it for the money. BUT I have gone through the website, spoken with many friends and family members who have been on it and it does sound really good. Everyone I know lost weight on the program so I am hoping the same will happen for me.

I am just tired of ranting on here all the time about my goals and never achieving them. I am really down. Im bigger than ever before. The last time I was this big was when I was 20 in the process of losing all my weight. I used to be 310 and went down to 171 a few years ago. Since Ive been living in another province, Ive had a nervous breakdown, gained 45 lbs and am on Prozac which is most likely causing my insane appetite and weight gain.

My doc REFUSES to take me off it because Ive only been on it 5 months and he says minimum 6 months!!!! I dont feel ANYTHING aside from being fat. I dont feel I need it. I had a nervous breakdown (which happens to everyone sometime in their life) and I hate that doctors will jump to the anti depressants. I guess crying in my docs office doesnt help but I was so frustrated by his response to what I was trying to tell him! They dont listen.  Friends of mine have been on Prozac and gained a bunch of weight. They just stopped and felt nothing. My stupid doctor wants to wean me off eventually. I think IM going to switch doctors.

Anyway I am going to my first WW meeting next Wed. I also joined my old gym just to have somewhere I can work out at when the weather is bad. I like hiking.

I really hope this works for me..I am so desperate. The pounds keep going up and I keep feeling less and less attractive/healthy. Its even affecting my sex life and I am a little bit of a nympho…:/lol

Please tell me inspiring WW stories!

Well I am stuck. I have been eating like crap and not exercising enough. I guess the motivation is totally gone! I know the more you gain the worse you feel.

But I am ready. I found a dietitian  who is realistic, amazing, and easy to talk to.

She wrote me a great plan that I am starting Monday. My goal is to lose 40-45 lbs by next fall. Wish me luck!

So I worked my ass off this week and guess what - didnt lose a pound - GAINED 3 lbs!!!!! Ive decided that it is the Prozac. My psych warned me that 6 months into the drug I might gain up to 20 lbs. Which Im close! We are looking at 15 now. I really work hard and try - but I am more hungry than ever and on days I really try to control it I retain so much water Im 5 lbs up!

I am getting off this drug in a few months so I am hoping I will be able to lose 35 lbs and at least not gain anymore weight!!! Anyone else have this problem????

Ive read online the whole “just eat properly and do lots of cardio” which is exactly what I have been doing all week. I really think this drug does something to cause the weight to go up - I am guessing retaining water.

Cannot wait to get off this drug.

Ive been weaning off my meds this week and going through some weird withdrawals. Not to mention I am on Prozac and it is making me want to eat full cows per day. Wow.

But Ive still been putting SOME exercise in…like walking 40 min to the train instead of taking the bus…doing my usual yoga every morning…

I have not fully accomplished my diet plan at all this week but put in a lot more fruits/veggies than I normally eat. Still eating too much bready stuff.

I dont think I lost anything. I have a full year to lose 35 lbs. I gotta stop slacking.

I had a bad dream last night that my blood pressure went to 240/100 and scared the crap out of me! I gotta stop obsessing over that as I do not have hypertension. I still am nervous at the fact I had high blood pressure at SOME point but apparently its normal for it to go up sometimes?

Anyway, its a new week next week. Ill keep trying. Weigh in tomorrow.

So its been about 6-7 months since I have been on here last. Maybe more.

Had an extremely tough year. Didnt think it would get any harder as 2009 sucked.  First off we are still in beautiful B.C. . Our first suite was awful. The place itself was nice but the house was paper thin. Our neighbors were very careless and very noisy. So we barely slept most nights. We lost one of our cats (my cat) to a coyote last November and I am still trying to get over it. My other cat (his brother) has gotten into a fight with a coyote and we nearly lost him as well. We had to take him to overnight emergency as he almost died. Luckily, he is still with us today. After going through a lot he has developed idiopathic cystitis which is basically an anxiety disorder. So he had bladder infections and eventually got stones that he had to have surgically removed. 3000$ later he is saved. He has not been sick since and it has been a good 10 months. So here is hoping. So after financially struggling, going through a loss and on top of that my job sucking hardcore the whole time, I decided I needed a change.

I started seeing a naturopath and she  gave me lots of great advice. Told me to cut dairy out of my life (as I have bad IBS/allergic reactions to it but I love cheese so much its so hard!) and gave me lots of vitamins. The only scary thing was my blood pressure was at 160/92. She told me there was nothing to worry about as Ive always been 130/80 and this could just be a stressful phase (I told her all thats gone on).  She recommended I meditate 10 min minimum per day and try to do some yoga. I was doing spinning/cardio kickboxing at the time and she felt it was not helping me in the sense they are high impact and my bodys cortisol levels were so high I needed something more relaxing but also that will make me fit.

I then had an evaluation done with my trainer at the gym a few days later and my blood pressure was still high. So he scared me and told me to go to a doc. I went to a doc and it was at 160/100 (obviously with the scary chat I had with my trainer I was extremely stressed at this point) so after this one reading my doc immediately gave me 2 blood pressure meds and he said if I dont take them Ill have a heart attack by the time IM 40. I was in shock. I worked so hard to lose this weight, and I still have high blood pressure? It doesnt run in my family, I do tend to get anxious and stressed plus I was going through a rough time…so I couldnt believe it. I ended up taking the meds and having vertigo/feeling stoned/unable to see properly for a month. I decided to get another doctors opinion. Not being from here I didnt have a family doc I could rely on, so I was desperately looking for one. I finally found one and she was TERRIBLE. She basically refused to listen to anything I said, told me its all in my head, and I should deal with the fact I have hypertension. Then on top of that she offered me diet pills!!!!!

I took time off work during all this. I started falling into a depression (crying everyday, not sleeping etc), and had constant anxiety attacks thinking they were heart attacks. I decided to seek some counselling. I saw a psychiatrist and he told me it sounds like I have GAD (generalized anxiety disorder) and that I should take anti anxiety meds. See if my blood pressure goes down - if it does then I AM stressed - if it doesnt then I have hypertension. So I did that and guess  what - my blood pressure went down. So I found a NEW doctor - a very good one. Told me to stop the bp meds and he will monitor me. So now its been 4 months and my blood pressure is normal. Im still on anti anxiety meds but I will be finished those on Monday.

So after 6 months of going through hell my boyfriend and I decided it was time to move back to Montreal. This city is NOT for us. We are Montrealers at heart - I miss the culture, the weather, my family, friends, my old job (Ill get it back and IM so excited) and I miss the cheap rent!!! Its way too expensive out here and very money driven. I love the people Ive met but I overall do not like the bland lifestyle out here. Sorry to any Vancouverites reading this.

I need my old family doctor back, and I am also going to LOSE 35 LBS BY THE TIME I MOVE BACK AND THIS IS HOW:

1-6 portions of bread a day (inc pastas/rice etc)

2-cut out mayo and chips

3-tons of fruits and veggies

4-6 oz fish/meat per day

5-40 min of cardio a day plus my yoga and meditation

6-lots of self care stuff to help me relax and lower my cortisol levels

So I need all the support I can get. I am determined to go back to my home looking and feeling back to my normal self.

Thanks for reading

xoxoxoxox

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